"Run mad as often as you choose. But do not faint"

Forever Thankful

2009-01-08T06:35:00.000-08:00

The first weekend of this new year was just absolutely AMAZING! I spent time with family and friends (new and old), and I couldn't have had a better time anywhere else. I'm so thankful for what God has blessed me with. However, I take an immense amount for granted. God has been reminding me over and over in certain areas in my life where I'm lacking in gratefulness.

Several people very dear to my heart are currently going through some of the toughest times in their own lives. My heart aches for them - fiercely aches. This morning has been a rough start, but I'm thankful that God has reminded me of all that He has given me. I want to be forever thankful.

I sit her drinking my coffee, listening to Robbie Seay, and praying for God's will and wisdom in my life and those surrounding me. I want to be what He needs me to be. I want His words to gush from my mouth. I want to be an encouragement to those struggling and not a source of strife. I want His word to dwell within me always. I want to be forever thankful for His Life, His Spirit, and His Love.

Colossians 3:15-17

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body; and be thankful. Let the word of Christ richly dwell within you, with all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with thankfulness in your hearts to God. Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father."

And I have to say one more thing. I've been using this "Genius" application on my iTunes. I selected "New Day" by Robbie Seay Band to be my main song. This is the amazing playlist it gave me. It's been very encouraging to listen to.

New Day - Robbie Seay Band

How Wonderful - Leeland

Mystery - Charlie Hall

Son of God - Starfield

Jesus, You are Worthy - Brenton Brown

Mistakes - Kutless

The Stand - Hillsong

Dance - Caedmon's Call

It's All About Jesus - Planetshakers

Love the Lord - Lincoln Brewster

Peace - Robbie Seay Band

Stronger - Delirious

Come and Listen - David Crowder Band

Carried to the Table - Leeland

Closer - Charlie Hall

Yes and Amen - Matt Redman

One More Night - Inhabited

Rise - Robbie Seay Band

The Hand That Holds the World - Starfield

Ready for You - Kutless

I Need Words - David Crowder Band

For My Love - Bethany Dillon

Our God Reigns - Chris Tomlin, Charlie Hall, David Crowder, and Matt Redman

Kindness - Chris Tomlin

Walk the World - Charlie Hall

My Room

2008-12-18T07:07:00.001-08:00

This is My room, Ladies and Gentlemen. I've never considered myself much of a decorator. It is something that I enjoy doing, but you know what? It takes money! Anyway, the pictures don't do the color of the walls justice - it's actually a dark turquoise (or at least that was the name of the paint). My family thought I was crazy when I trying to describe to them what I had in mind - well... except for my sister. She always has faith in me. I'm in my room all the time now. It just feels so warm and cozy.

The bouquet on the top of this shelf was my bouquet in my sister's wedding. This is also where I keep all my books and movies.

There's my satchel! I love my satchel!

I found this picture of the Chrysler Building at Kirkland's for $10! I little piece of NYC.

This is my ginormous desk with my painting above it. I love my desk! Thank you craigslist.com!

This is somewhat of a collage of the places I've had the pleasure of traveling to (except for Paris).

And just so you know, I don't have a huge fascination with Paris as it may seem. I did one painting, and everyone started giving me anything that had to do with the Eiffel Tower. However, I do love architecture, and I think the Eiffel Tower is gorgeous. I hope to visit Paris someday.

Consistency

2008-12-16T07:30:00.000-08:00

I just read a friend's blog about passions. It's somewhat inspired me to write a little list of the things and people I love with a quick description of why.

My Sister, Lindsay
She's profoundly loving and caring, and has helped me grow spiritually and physically stronger than any other human being. God has placed her in my life for a reason. I don't even want to think about life without her.

My Brother, Jeramie
He's a source of strength that's ever so constant. When other people run, he's still there beside me and has never made me feel alone. I can tell him anything without fear or shame. He's not technically my brother, but he might was well be.

Writing
This is a newer one for me ("newer" - as in the past 5 years or less). Writing is way for me to pour my other passions and emotions on paper. I love reading and listening to stories and feeling the emotions they evoke - excitement, sadness, love, thrill. Writing is a way of documenting mine, whether it's ridiculous everyday life happenings or something very deeply felt. I love it. It's not so much as an escape but more of a release.

Art
I love painting. I wish I had more opportunity to do so. Again, painting is another means of expression. There's no wrong way, which I think many people are seeking. No one can tell you what you're doing is wrong. There's different techniques, different strokes, but you can't make a mistake with whatever you choose. It's you and this artwork is yours.

Laughter and Joy
I live by Nehemiah 8:10. "Do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." There's nothing better than being happy. Everyone is searching for happiness in their own way, and lot of times they're searching in the wrong places. God has given me so much joy, and I couldn't be more thankful. I can be in the darkest of times and still be happy. It's not that I don't care or I don't feel as deeply as everyone else, it's just that God has given me a way of peace and strength - and guess what? It's through joy.
And has far has laughter goes... It's a drug to me. There are times I just can't stop. I'm an addict.

Music
I have probably written more about music than any other topic on my blog. I love music, melody and sound. Granted, there are some "sounds" I prefer not to hear, but God has gifted us with music, and how we choose to use it is up to us.

After I wrote this, I read over it and realized why I love each one of these so much. These are the only things that have been perpetual for me - Unchanging, unwavering, consistent. I can rely on each one in it's own way.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mind change in my life or new adventures. I live for them. But I can always come back to these things\people and know they will still be there no matter what. To know and be confident in the fact these bonds won't be broken is such an uplifting factor in my life.
I also want to express the fact I know God is behind each one. He knows what I need, and to express my thankfulness would be another lengthy blog. I love my life and what God has given. There's definitely times when I want to run from the struggles I face, but He's given me each one of these that I may come out on the other side stronger and with my faith lifted. He is the actual constant source, and to Him I give all the glory.

Lost in Theories and Thought

2008-12-15T06:55:00.000-08:00

Last night on my way home from Oklahoma City, I discovered that my heater wasn't working. Not good, especially when it's 32 degrees outside and working it's way down.
In order to stay warm, my mother and I kept the conversation flowing with several random topics. I'm pretty talented when it comes to randomness, so we had no issues there.
I also have theories, theories about pretty much anything. Again, very random theories, I must say, but they keep me going and also laughing (which is my favorite thing to do). Nothing serious though. I'm lighthearted about it all.

So, my mother and I were discussing the Marilyn Monroe theory. Most are familiar with this topic, but I believe there's more to the story than just an overdose. I'm not going to get into the details, but no one can prove them. Yet, that's why they're theories; they're just ideas. I'm a person that thinks about things too seriously and should often be ignored. However, it's something I enjoy and also something my family and friends have to put up with. (I'm sorry).

Here's one of my theories: I believe that there's a lot more that goes on with rich and famous than we actually know. We just think we know every little detail about their lives, but we don't (at least for some). They have enough money to keep certain things hidden from the public. If it's important for them to keep it quiet, they can do it.

Granted, I know it was a lot easier to keep things on the down-low 50-60 years ago, but take Clark Gable for example. He was supposedly in an accident due to excessive drinking. From different reports there was a pedestrian involved, yet again, this cannot be proved.
Either way (hit-and-run or no hit-and-run), MGM's punishment for his behavior was lending him to Columbia Pictures to do this low-budget film called "It Happened One Night". This movie won him an Oscar and four other Oscars including Best Actress and Best Picture.
It is also best known for being the first film to show a man's bare chest.
Now as you can see, these people had the means to keep this all hush-hush. Case closed.

Adding to the topic, I told my mother how I wondered what other celebrities had possibly been involved in certain criminal activities. Who technically killed whom? Who really shot whom? Who bumped off whom?
I mean, you can't deny me the fact that Puff Daddy (Puff Diddy, P. Diddy - whatever) has puffed a few people off. I have a whole other theory about how he even achieved his name, but I won't post it here. I could get myself in trouble. Just ask me sometime. It's pretty ridiculous though.

I'm going to end my post there. I really don't know if there is a point to this blog, other than the fact that I enjoy thinking and discussing things whether it is ridiculous or something deeper. I often find my self sitting on my bed and thinking about whatever - like I just escaped some other world. People my consider it daydreaming, but I consider it lost in thought.

Music and Tears

2008-12-10T13:56:00.000-08:00

I'm not a crier. And I have nothing against criers, since I used to be one. But now, it takes something with personal meaning or significance for the tears to flow. The initiators of such happenings are (in general) People, Movies, and Books.

Now, there's one very important substance I did not mention: MUSIC.

Music plays a monumental part in my life. I have this crazed passion for melodies, and sadly I'm just beginning to learn how to play them myself. (I have a few friends teaching me the guitar. I'm very excited!) I've always considered music has one of God's greatest gifts to mankind, and it's definitely one of the paths I often choose to draw closer to Him. I just can't express how much music moves me, speaks to me, and comforts me.

With that said, this is what I'm really getting at here:
I've never cried just because of a song. A song can be so powerful it causes to ache or to contemplate things, but never to cry. However, if I begin to ponder about anything, whether it be my family or friends, a certain incident, or just life itself; then I will surely cry. But, the fact is, it's not the song itself; it's the thoughts that the song has directed me towards. Yet, I have been at church ,during praise and worship, and cried; but that's still due to the fact I was going through some of the toughest times in my life. Those thoughts and feelings coming to me about the situation I found my life in, were the true reason for my tears.

(This baby just listened to Nickelback for the first time. This is a different kind of crying.
(And I'm crying with him.)

Now.... according to several of my friends, this is very foreign to them. Upon hearing a song that is in some way moving to them, they might shed a few tears. I, however, do not; I cannot.
A few of these "friends", I might add, are males. They will remain nameless not for their protection but for mine.

"Delicate" by Damien Rice is (in my opinion) one of the most moving and powerful songs I've ever heard. Others may hear it and not feel the same, but as for me, I absolutely feel his pain and passion. It's unbelievable. I think if I could cry just because of the intensity of a song, that would be one to break this curse I must have. (There are many others that affect me in the same way, but I'm going to list them here because it's not important. And with songs, it's pretty much to each his own.)

I've even purposely listened to certain songs to cause myself cry. Have you've seen "The Holiday" with Cameron Diaz and the lovely Kate Winslet (she's one of my faves)? Picture me now, because that's what I look like when compelling myself to cry.
For those who haven't seen it, Cameron Diaz plays this woman who cannot cry no matter what happens to her. There's this scene where she does just about anything to make herself cry but to no avail. Watch it; it's great!

Now that I'm finished publicizing Damien Rice and "The Holiday", I would like to hear other opinions on the matter of music and tears. If you cry during a song, are you crying in view of the song or due to something else?

And, guys, we know you cry. (Dawson wasn't afraid.)

Hardcovers VS Paperbacks - In Reagan's Perspective

2008-12-01T11:39:00.001-08:00

I love Books! Sometimes my love for books is more powerful than my love for reading. I can stay in Barnes and Noble for hours and hours. Drinking a cup of coffee, thumbing through the pages of history, fantasy, thrillers; what more can I ask for? The only problem is the longer I spend in book stores the longer my "must read" list becomes, and then my bank account starts shedding some weight. Not good. Stick the the library, Reagan! STICK TO THE LIBRARY!

One thing I have discovered, is that I used to hate paperback books, but only for the fact that they deteriorate a lot sooner than hardbacks. My opinion has reversed in the recent years, because I can pretty much guarantee you I have a book everywhere I go. I usually carry this huge satchel, and you can bet there's a book in there. I used to not be this way. Ok, now back to why I now prefer paperbacks to hardbacks.

#1. Hardcovers are bulkier. There's certain ones I can't just throw in my bag and go. If I did, I would knocking everyone over with my humongous satchel. WHAM!!!! Oops! There goes grandma! WHAM!!! Oops! My sister just went through wall.

#2 After I'm finished reading a page, I flip it to the other side and crease the middle of the book. I love to grasp a softback and bend the pages to the shape of my hand has I'm reading. The book is curled a bit after I'm finished - like a taco. (Yummm!) You obviously can't do this with a hardback.

#3 I don't care if I get coffee stains on the pages or if I write in it or if there's smudges. Why? Because this book just cost me 5 bucks when that hardcover over there just cost me 30!

Don't get me wrong. I love hardbacks! Nothing looks better on your trophy shelf. That's how I feel when I've finished a book. I close it. I hold it out in front of me. I sigh a sigh of accomplishment. And I then I take a victory lap around my room; screaming to the top of my lungs. Once you've placed your trophy on the shelf, you're a winner. Nothing says it more like a hardback. The paperbacks just end up falling over. I don't know about you, but it gives me a sense of cheapness. It's like that trophy I got when I was in T-Ball. I didn't have it 5 MINUTES and the bat broke! What the heck!?!?!

So there it is. Hardcovers VS Paperbacks - In Reagan's Perspective.

Heroes

2008-11-26T21:46:00.000-08:00

I just had another absolutely confusing conversation with my sister about Heroes Volume 3.

But let me back up here a bit. I've watched seasons (aka volumes) 1 and 2. I really enjoyed them, but like many other shows (for example 24, Lost, and so on), if I miss one episode, I feel as if I've missed the whole thing. This may not be the case for some people, but I like to be able to watch 30 minutes to an hour and that be it (for example, Seinfeld, The Office and 30 Rock). Yet, I love the excitement and thrills these shows offer, but I do have issues with the rest.
My addiction to Heroes was also due to the fact that it's so much like X-Men. I love X-Men! I never actually read the comic books, but I loved the cartoon as a kid. I love that they have all these crazy different amazing powers. One can control the weather, one can freeze things, one can heal! I'm enamored by the whole idea of it. As a kid I would imagine I was Jubilee or Storm and Wolverine was my boyfriend, of course.

With that said - I've only seen 2 episodes of this latest season. I've been telling all my friends and family not to tell me anything. I don't want to know because I want to watch and experience the show for myself. One of my friends said that he quit watching it because everyone just miraculously kept coming back to life. But I ignored him because I liked the show and wanted to find out for myself. So, again I told everyone not to tell me ANYTHING.
Then... here comes my sister. I will do anything for her and she knows this. She looks at me with her gorgeous eyes, and she's begging me without a word to let her spill the beans.

"Fine, Lindsay! Just tell me! What's happening in the show...."

She claps her hands together in utter excitement: "Well!!!! The future Peter..." - she begins. "The future Peter has placed the present Peter in the future."

I ask, "Wait! Wasn't the present Peter in someone else's body?"

"Yes, but he's out now."

"How?"

"Uhhhh... I don't know, but that doesn't matter. But Claire shot Peter!"

"The future Peter or the present Peter?"

"The future Peter."

"So the present Claire shot the future Peter?"

"No! The future Claire shot the future Peter."

"So where's the present Peter?"

"In the future. And the future Peter is dead."

"So she shot him in the head. Because he can only die if she shoots him in the head."

"No she didn't! That's the crazy thing! She shot him in the abdomen and now he's dead! Isn't that crazy!"

"Then he's not dead."

"What?"

"The bullet is just stuck in him. If they take it out, he will comeback to life."

"You're right!"

She continues on to another character...
"So Peter and Nathan's dad is still alive! He didn't die!"

"What? "

"Yeah! And he grabbed Adam Monroe's arm and took all of his powers. Adam then fell to ashes.
So HE's dead now."

"No, he's not."

"He's not!?!?!"

"No. It won't be long before he's back."

"No, he fell to ashes. I'm pretty sure he's gone for good."

"Only time will tell."

We then ended the conversation on Peter Petrelli and Parker the police officer, and then Mohinder turning into some kind of Spider-Man monster. Seeing a connection?

My mom then told us about an article she read, telling of certain shows "Jumping the Shark".
She said that towards the end of Happy Days, they had an episode where Fonzie was water skiing, and he actually jumped a shark. So now, when a show starts to go off the deep end and becomes ridiculous, they call it "Jumping the Shark". Heroes was rated the number one show of this season to do so. Everyone is miraculously coming back to life (just like my friend said), good people are becoming bad, villains becoming heroes, and so on.

I've decided that I'm no longer interested. I think I'll stick to my ridiculous comedies. Long live Chandler Bing, George Costanza, Liz Lemon, Jim Halpert, and Andy Sandberg.

Innocence of the Young

2008-11-24T15:04:00.001-08:00

First of all, I have to prep you on a little story before I can tell the one that I've actually come to tell.

It was the night of my sister's rehearsal, and I had stopped at this quaint bed and breakfast where my family was staying for the weekend to pick them up and take them to the rehearsal dinner. My aunt introduced me to John, who ran the bed and breakfast. She also informed him of that bright neon light flashing above my head that read, "SINGLE! SINGLE!".

John is probably about 5 ft 7 1/2 in, looks like he's probably in his late 20's, and is a little on the creepy side.

He's also an aspiring photographer, and I happen to have interest in the subject, so we visited for a while about cameras and so on and so forth. However, as we were about to leave he just had to show us this video he constructed of one of his photo shoots.
The music was horrible. Now, I know I'm a music freak, but even my cousin was making fun of this horribly corny music under her breath.

Finally! We're heading out the door and he tells me that he would love for me to join him and his friends for evening. They were going to go see Madagascar 2 but understood that I couldn't since it was my sister's rehearsal dinner and all. I politely thanked him for the offer, but there was no way I was going anywhere with this guy.

So, the whole night my family teased and teased me about my boy, John.
"I'm sure John would love to be here!"
"Reagan, when you go out with him, make sure you where flats. You don't want to hurt his feelings."
"John" this. "John" that.
"What a cute video John made!"

And then....
My little 13-year-old cousin Austin decides to pipe in:
"Yeah, I'm sure John would LOVE to make a video of you!"

Awkward pause....
Jodie his father laid his hand on Austin's shoulder then looked at me and said, "He doesn't know what he's saying, Reagan. He doesn't know what he's saying."

I, of course, began to laugh so hard I was crying. I thought my brother was going to fall to the ground. Austin was completely oblivious to what he had just said.

However, I'm thankful that he was. Innocence is something very special and irreplaceable.

Woopie!!!

2008-11-12T20:32:00.001-08:00

So, my friend just posted a picture of herself dressed in a woopie cushion costume. Hilarious photo. It reminded me of this random kid in Hastings I had the pleasure of interacting with.

I was walking down the movie aisles, talking to this guy I had somewhat of a crush on. The kid would come out of nowhere with his woopie cushion! I would signal to him to cut it out or get lost, but he would repeatedly just run off and then come right back. Utterly embarrassed, I abruptly told my crush I had to get off the phone, and I would call him back later. As soon has I closed my phone, the kid took off never to be seen again.

I secretly envy that child for his cleverness and bravery. What kid would do that to some random stranger!?!? Wow...

Christmas Time

2008-11-10T12:40:00.000-08:00

Ok, it's official!
I'm ready for Christmas!
With Lindsay's wedding coming up, I haven't had time to be ready for anything. Not even Thanksgiving! People have been asking me what my plans are for the holidays, and I honestly have no idea.

The other day, I was meeting up with my step mother and sister-in-law at the mall. They said they would meet me in Bath and Body Works. So, has a strolled the lanes of the great Quail Springs Mall, I happened upon our meeting destination. I couldn't believe my eyes! The whole store was decorated in CHRISTMAS! The sound of Dean Martin singing Silver Bells and the scents of their magical Christmas candles (that's right! MAGICAL!) left me breathless. I know I'm sounding utterly ridiculous here, but I love Christmas time. This was an escape from the busy bustle of the constant mall-goers, to a place I like to call the North Pole.

Ahhhh! And Christmas music!!!! Can you get anymore cheerful!?!?! Instant happiness coming forth through whatever device you might be listening from: You're iPod, zune, radio, and so on. You get the picture.

Oh AND! My mother and I are taking a trip to Branson, Missouri during the first weekend in December. I can't wait to see the Christmas shows. Everyone tells me it's an amazing experience to go there during Christmas time. I'm sooooo excited! The picture above is actually of Branson. "Amazing" in my opinion.

Romantic at Heart

2008-11-10T08:46:00.000-08:00

I'm going to be honest here; I'm a total romantic.
I'm also a complete freak when it comes to music and with my sister getting married, I've been having to listening to so many songs in preparation for her wedding.

Some of my favorites and what I consider some of the most romantic songs ever are as follows - no particular order and probably super-duper cliche, but whatever:

Sundress: Ben Kweller
Shiver: Coldplay
Yellow: Coldplay
Til Kingdom Come: Coldplay
Fix You: Coldplay
Remember to Breathe: Dashboard Confessional
Such Great Heights: The Postal Service
All I Need: Radiohead
New Day: Robbie Seay Band
Closer: Travis
Under the Moonlight: Travis
Your Song: Elton John
The Book of Love: Peter Gabriel
Transatlanticism: Death Cab for Cutie

I know some of these my not be solely about loving someone and them loving back - and blah, blah, blah - but there's moments in each one that the lyrics grasp my attention and cause me to sigh a deep sigh or just feel that feeling in the pit of your stomach. Yes, I'm a dork. But ask any girl - we all feel it.
Now... I could probably go on and on with more songs.... but I'm going to stop there. This is my personal list, and if I had more time to think there would probably be more. I actually have no idea why I'm writing this, I guess I've just been listening to a lot of Coldplay recently, and in my opinion they pretty much rule when it comes to being romantic.

Random Conversations We Have

2008-11-06T11:08:00.000-08:00

Random conversation at work:

Me: So, Mom. I heard from the mechanic, and it's the alternator. They'll hopefully have....
~Melissa, my coworker, walks up behind me~

Mel: Reagan, when I walk up, You stop talking. Do you understand?

Me: When I walk up, You shut up! (Nice comeback, right? Said just like Napoleon too.)

Mom: So Melissa, did you fix that issue? (Totally ignoring the conversation we were having that Mel just interrupted.)

Mel: Yes.

Mom: What did you do? How did you do it?

Mel: I voted.

Me: What?

Mom: So, you just turned it back on?

Mel: Yeah.

Me: Wow...

That was the conversation word for word, except for what's in parenthesis. Those are just my thoughts. I was utterly confused and impressed at the same time.

Reagan VS Restrooms

2008-10-23T06:36:00.000-07:00

Ok, so there's been several events leading up to yesterday's work of art.

I will begin with a little reminder of a few happenings that a few of you who know me may have already heard.

Not too long ago, I walked into the lady's restroom - obviously, to do my thing - and I opened the door to the stall and the seat was up. Now... usually you can tell if this occurrence is the result of a fresh cleaning. However, this was not the case. At first out of shock, I jump back then scope the room to make sure I'm in the right place. I conclude that I am, but usually resume my business in a different stall.
This incident has happened to me several times since then. Odd...
Another bathroom bewilderment happened while at TGIF's (aka Friday's). I went to the women's restroom and while I was in the first stall, I hear someone walk in. This person (hopefully a "she") went straight to the back stall, threw the door open, and then proceeded to do the same to the next stall and then the next stall. I could hear her coming closer and closer. She finally arrived at mine and jiggled the handle.
I believe I responded with something like, "Ummmm....."
And then an arm shot from underneath the door! She had a roll of toilet paper in her hand, set it at my feet, and then walked out of the restroom altogether. Again, odd...
So my theory is all these things have been happening as warning signs of a day that lay ahead, a day of absolute bathroom horror. This very day will go down in the books, my friends.

October 22, 2008.

I went to Oklahoma City for a seminar for my job. I already had three cups of coffee and upon arriving at our destination, I - of course - needed a bathroom, pronto.
I spot the women's sign and head straight for the first stall I saw. Unknowingly, I picked a stall with a broken lock. I didn't pay much attention because obviously my thoughts were otherwise preoccupied. Someone walks in, and of course, goes straight for my stall and opens the door leaving me exposed. I don't scream; I usually make this high-pitched "whoop" sound. After I did so, she shut the door and apologized. Awkwardly, I apologize also for not realizing the door was possibly cracked open. Then I just wanted to burst out laughing. I restrained myself and did my best to get the heck out of the bathroom. I then prayed I wouldn't see that woman at the seminar I was going to. God heard me, because I never saw her again.

Same day.....
I drank too much water during the seminar and also at lunch. So again, I've gotta go. I chose a different bathroom altogether. I didn't want what happened a few hours earlier to happen again. I did my thing and flushed the toilet. The toilet flushed like normal, but instead of filling back up with water, it EXPLODED. Water gushed from places I didn't know was possible. Yes... toilet bowl water was all over me and the floor. It just kept coming. I wished I could have had a shower right then and there.

I was banned from drinking any kind of liquids until we arrived back at the office.

This day was to prove that both God and I have a sense of humor.

Finding Atlas

2008-09-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

On our last morning in NYC, my mother and I were explored Rockefeller Center. After "The Today Show" we went to the Top of the Rock and then walked around the block looking for Atlas. I couldn't remember exactly where Atlas was located, but I knew it was somewhere in Rockefeller Center. Everyone knows that. Or at least I thought. I asked about three or four people around the area one being a security guard,
"Excuse me, but could you tell me where the Atlas statue is?"

His response, "Nope." He wouldn't even look at me.
I had another lady tell me she had no idea what I was talking about even when I described the statue to her.

So I decided to walk into some clothing store on 5th Ave and 49th Street and ask again. (Keep in mind, I've been strolling down 5th Ave between 51st and 49th Streets this whole time. Ok?)

"I'm sorry, but would you happen to know where the Atlas statue is?"

With a expression of utter confusion, the lady looked at me and said, "The what?"

"Atlas. You know, the man holding the globe on his shoulders."

Still confused she said, "Ummm.... I don't... no, I don't don't know about that. You might want to ask her." pointing to a coworker. "Hey, Amanda, do you know where - Atlas? Right?" Looking at me and then turning back to her coworker. "Yeah... do you know where the Atlas statue is?"

"Of course!" Amanda said. "That big statue?!! Yeah! It's way, way, way down 39th Street. Almost to the end. Way down there." Amanda overly chipper today, just so you know.

"So... way down 39th Street?" I said. This seemed way, way, way too far from Rockefeller Center. "I'll just continue down 5th until I get to 39th?"

"Yeah! It's way, way, way down 49th!"

"Ok, so I'll go to the end of 49th."

"Yeah, go way down 59th!"

"So, it's on 59th? Not 49th."

"Yeah! Way, way, way down 59th. You can't miss it. It's all the way at the end."

"Ok, well, I'll try that. Thank you for your help."

"No problem! Have a wonderful day!"

I walked out to the sidewalk where my mother was waiting.
"So," she said, "where did they say it was? You were in there long enough."

I began telling her about the conversation I just had with Crazy Amanda. We both agreed to find someone else. Then I realized... this whole time I had my booklet with me with all the sites to see in NYC. I could have kicked myself.

Finally! Atlas was located just up the street in between 50th and 51st. The reason we didn't see it before was because they had it covered for cleaning. The box it was in blended perfectly with the other buildings, so if you just walked by it on the street you wouldn't know it was there. Pretty ridiculous, I know.... but then so was Amanda.

Faith, Hope, and Love

2008-09-05T06:13:00.000-07:00

Last night I had the pleasure of spending time with friends (new and old) in Ada, Oklahoma, USA, the World.
I have been so blessed to meet every single one of them, and they have been such a testimony to me.

A message was shared during our visit about keeping faith even during difficult times. When God allows these things to happen, and we keep the faith and hope alive, the ending result will be good. We will be blessed.
Recently many spiritual and physical trials have come against my family and me. I can feel myself becoming bitter, which pulls me farther away from God.

God has been so merciful and patient with me. Why is it that I choose to lose hope when He has been so faithful and has proven Himself over and over again?

I want to choose life. I want to fight the good fight. I want to finish the course. I want to keep the faith through each moment of hardship. I constantly cry out for peace and strength to keep me standing during temptations, testings and trials. I know if I walk in His endurance and strength that there will be a good outcome. I don't always recognize it immediately, but there have been so many times where I've looked back later down the road and have seen the work He did in my life and finally understand why.

This has definitely been one of the reasons I've been listening to Robbie Seay Band so much lately. There's at least one song (if not more) on each of his albums that is constantly reminding us (or at least me) of faith, hope and love.

My faves:
Better Days - Better Days Album
Jesus Garden of My Rest - Better Days
Peace - (This on the Better Days, but I prefer the version on 10,000 Charms)
Song of Hope - Give Yourself Away
New Day - Give Yourself Away (This is my ultimate fave!)
Love Wins - Give Yourself Away
You are Good - 10,000 Charms
Hope - 10,000 Charms

There are so many more songs of his that are wonderful, but these truly speak to me in times I feel myself losing faith, hope and the greatest of all... Love.

Taking the Name of God

2008-08-21T11:13:00.000-07:00

Everyone is familiar with Exodus 20:7 - "You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain, for the LORD will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain." - NKJV
And of course, it's one of the Ten Commandments.

When I do my bible studies, I usually look up the simple definitions and synonyms of the words used in the verse.

This scripture, for most, has always meant something on the lines of - "Thou shall not swear or curse." When I was a kid I never understood where people came up with this translation. But then I read another translation of the verse that said, "You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God." - and using God, Christ and Jesus as swear words are most definitely misusing Christ's name.

But...
I know several years ago, our pastor or one of the elders or just someone (I really can't remember) brought to my attention that this may have a different meaning. I remember doing my own bible study on it not long after that discussion and was just reminded of it recently.

First: Take - to hold, grasp, or grip, to receive and accept willingly, to carry, to occupy, to adopt...
Second: Vain - ineffectual or unsuccessful; futile; without real significance, value, or importance; baseless or worthless, useless...

While I was studying this, I began thinking of a bride taking the name of the groom. For example, my sister is about to marry, Shay Hayes. She will no longer be Lindsay Faught. She is taking his name as her own, because they will now become one. Lindsay Hayes.
Everyday, we take on the name of Christ. How? It's simple - by calling ourselves "Christians." We are taking the name of our Father as our own.
Now... here comes the Vain part. When we walk in unrighteousness, we are walking in worthlessness. By calling ourselves sons and daughters of God, but treat His name as if it were nothing, He will not hold us guiltless.
What comes to mind now is that a covenant is made between the bride and groom to love, honor and obey. When a person in this kind of covenant turns to another outside of this covenant - to me, this is counting the unity and bond that was made, vain - worthless, futile, without importance.
So as we make a covenant with God, saying that we will love, honor, and obey - yet we turn to another (sin), that is counting the covenant we have made with Christ as nothing.

I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but it does to me. It just shows me how important it is to take on the name of our Father, and how we need to strive to be just like Jesus - perfect and holy. I know we're going to make mistakes, but that's where God's love and forgiveness comes in, and we can be washed clean and began again. We need to consider the covenant we have made with God as of the greatest importance. No one wants to be in a one-sided relationship. So how do you think God feels?

Save the Bunny!!!

2008-08-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

I was at my Dad's house this past weekend, and we all were enjoying a nice cup of java on the back patio. The dogs began to bark and chase after what we thought was a squirrel at first, and then realized was a rabbit. My sister, being the animal's rights activist that she is, jumped out of her chair, chased the dogs with her arms waving in the air, and yelling, "Save the Bunny! Safe the Bunny!" When suddenly....

She bit the dust.

This is a vision I cannot get out of my head.

Don't worry everyone, she was laughing the moment she kissed the concrete. She is alive and well. I love that girl.

Taylor and Celine 4EVER!

2008-08-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

So does anyone remember Celine Dion's video to "It's All Coming Back to Me Now"?

I do. You want to know why? Because a particular family member loved that song. No - it wasn't my mother. Nope - not my sister. Oh yeah... It was my brother.

Every time the video was played on MTV, we would have to stop whatever we were doing and watch. Later the video of "Because You Loved Me" came out, and Celine was sporting a new and
much shorter hairstyle. Taylor would comment on how he liked her hair longer: "She looks like a mouse now!"

Taylor, this is for you. Celine and Taylor - 4EVER!

Another one of Taylor's faves was N'Sync's "Bye, Bye, Bye." I wonder if he still knows the dance moves... --->Check it Out

I remember listening to the Weekly Top 40 on our way home from a family ski trip. Taylor just knew that "Bye Bye Bye" was going to be the number 1 song, so we had to listen to every single song until he could hear N'Sync. Several hours later, they announced the number 1 song and sure enough, it was "Bye Bye Bye." Just as the song began, we lost reception. I don't know who was more upset: Taylor - for not being able to listen to his beloved song; or Lindsay, Dad, and I - for having to listen to 39 songs plus commercials just so that Taylor could listen to a song he had already heard a millions times before.

My Lindsay Lu

2008-08-12T07:51:00.000-07:00

Today is my sister's 25 birthday. I'm so thankful to be blessed with such a beautiful person in my life, inside and out. I'm not just saying this because she is my sister, and I believe anyone who knows her would vouch for me when I say - she is a truly special person.

For the most part of my life, Lindsay's practically been a second mother to me. She's always been a shoulder of support in very way conceivable. I can't imagine life without her humor, her charm, her patience, her kindness, and most of all her love.

When we were younger, I hated the fact that she told me what to do all the time and was always
the leader in everything. "You're not my mother!", I would tell her. Looking back now, I wish I could knock some sense in that little punk of a kid. She was trying to protect me. Protect me from my own stupid selfishness which would eventually lead to heartache. Out of hope and love she's paved that rocky road smooth, just for me.

I want her to know I love and appreciate all her lectures and "talks," because I know she was helping me become a better person.

She is apart of me: My Mentor, My Confidant, My Sister, My Friend.

With all my heart, Lindsay Lu, I will love you until the day I die. -Your Ragie Baby.

Little Red What?

2008-08-11T14:22:00.000-07:00

Jeff:
Reagan, those shoes look like Little Red Robin Hood's!

Me:
I believe you're thinking of Dorothy from the Wizard of OZ. And it's "Little Red Riding Hood" not "Little Red Robin Hood."

Jeff:
Yeah!

Me: Let's see Little Red Riding Hood kick butt with the bow and arrow! Woo-hoo!

By the way, here's my shoes...
You decided: Little Red Riding Hood or Dorothy?
I prefer Little Red Robin Hood.

Awkward Moments

2008-07-30T14:36:00.001-07:00

My mother and I were at a friend's house dropping off a gift or what not. As we were saying hello, their telephone began ringing. Problem was, the phone was cordless and most likely hidden between the cushions of their couch. As it rang she and her husband searched and searched throughout the house and... finally... they found the phone but it was too late. The caller had disconnected before they had time to answer the phone.

(Now, for a little low-down on this couple, although very sweet - I have yet to find life of a sense of humor in either one of them.)

She huffed and he shook his head with great disappointment as they gazed upon that burdensome phone. My mother, trying to lighten the situation, said - "You know, someday they're going to invent a phone attached to the wall. Then you won't have to break a sweat every time you have to answer the phone."

Knowing that my mother was making a joke, I began to giggling as did she. Our friends, on the other hand, stared at Mom as if she was an absolute idiot. I couldn't believe they actually took her literally! The room became awkwardly silent, except for my attempts to hold back a laugh.

Mom turned to me and said, "Well! I guess it's time to go!"

We said our goodbyes and bolted to the car before they could hear us laugh even harder.

PS

I'm so thankful to be in a family that can laugh at themselves under any circumstance.

Here's some of my favorite awkward moments in life... Although most are not my own, I just want to point them out.

Tyra Banks
(and her show)

Ashely's faux pas on SNL
(don't forget the Orange Bowl either)

Such as Miss Teen South Carolina
“I personally believe that U.S. Americans are unable to do so because, uh, some people out there in our nation don’t have maps, and, uh, I believe that our education like such as in South Africa and, uh, the Iraq everywhere like, such as and I believe that they should, our education over here in the U.S. should help the U.S., er, should help South Africa and should help the Iraq and the Asian countries, so we will be able to build up our future for our children.”
Wow...

Ok, here's a moment that has definitely happened to me. Very Awkward..

Can't forget Elaine... My Hero.

And then there was the time I was trying to get a picture of "Heed." His father caught me...

Daddy and the Caddy

2008-07-28T09:01:00.000-07:00

My father used to have this '93 Cadillac DeVille that he just thought was the greatest boat - Excuse me! I mean Car, there ever was. We (my brother, my sister and I) were barely allowed to even eat in the caddy let alone drink, sneeze, cough, or breathe in it's presence. Now that I'm older, I somewhat understand him not wanting an 8-year-old eating french fries with ketchup in his beloved car. A few weeks ago, my nephew spilled a snow cone in my own backseat, and I was reminded of my father. However, snow cones would have never been an option with him. Smart.

But what really reminded me of the good ol' caddy days was Dad's famous words, "Can you slam the door any harder!?!"

We were used to "Junkers" - (translation: automobiles usually worth 10, maybe 20 cents). If you didn't slam your door, your body would most likely be thrown from the vehicle just as soon as the door flew open as you were sailing down the highway.

One afternoon, when Dad was taking Taylor, Lindsay, and I to Wherever, America; we hopped in the car, shut the doors, and here it came:
"Can you slam the doors any harder!?! My goodness!"

Each one of us reopened our doors and simultaneously slammed the them shut with all our might!
Neither Taylor, Lindsay, nor I knew that each of us was going to do the exact same thing at the exact same time. Our eyes were filled with shock! We couldn't believe that actually happened! Of course, we all began laughing so hard we were in the floorboard, except for Dad. He just stared at us, fiercely trying not to smile; therefore, he managed to pull off this awkward expression of deep disappointment, which made us laugh even more.

Hi, my name is Harry Pitts.

2008-07-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

Can you imagine being named "Talula Does The Hula From Hawaii"? Yes, this is true. A nine-year-old girl from New Zealand was named this by her weirdo parents.

Click here to read the full story.

I am not against unique names. My life revolves around being creative, and I applaud those who think outside of the box. But... naming your child "Fish and Chips" is stepping outside of one box and jumping into another. This is the box of "INSANITY".

Now, I don't mean to judge harshly; I just feel sorry for the poor kids. They're too embarrassed to even tell their friends their own name. And I'm not talking about people like my dad. He goes by his middle name not just because of a family tradition, but also because he hates his first name - Howard. This is not a horrible name though, maybe just a little out dated.

Like I said before, I like different and unique names, even to the point where my family thinks I'm weird. For instance, I don't think Talula is horrible. Actually, I really like it.
Let's also examine the name Apple. I didn't think that Gwyneth Paltrow and her husband Chris Martin were insane for choosing such a name (and I'm not saying this just because I'm a huge Coldplay fan!). It's not a name I would probably use but it's their life, and I really don't think Apple is ever going to be picked on - no pun intended (especially with having a superstar mother and a rock star father. Think about it).

Basically what I'm saying here... is be creative not cruel and stupid.

Lindsay's hand is as soft as a.... Jelly Jar?

2008-07-17T12:44:00.000-07:00

My sister Lindsay stayed with my grandparents for the summer after she graduated high
school.

At dinner time, we always hold each others hands, bow our heads, and Big Daddy (my grandfather) prays. Lindsay was sitting next to him one evening and laid out her hand for him to take, but he never did. As he prayed, Lindsay opened her eyes and saw he had his hand around the spoon in the jelly jar.

She did her best contain her laughter until the prayer was over and then asked, "Big Daddy. Did you realize you were holding the spoon in the jelly jar rather than my hand?"

Big Daddy's response: "I thought your hand was cold!"

Picture This

2008-07-10T10:11:00.000-07:00

I found this on Skybag's and Sea-gal's Blogs.... I thought it would be fun.

#1. What is your current relationship status?

#2. What is your current mood?

#3. Who is your favorite band/singer?

#4. What is your favorite movie?

#5. What pets do you have?

#6. Where do you live?

#7. Where do you work?

#8. Who do you look like? (or so I'm told)

#9. What do you drive?

#10. What did you do last Saturday?

#11. What did you do last Sunday?

#12. What is your favorite network TV show?

#13. Describe yourself

#14. What is your favorite candy?

Spoonerisms

2008-07-06T18:50:00.000-07:00

Ever heard of Spoonerisms?

Believe it or not there is a name for those incorrigible tongue twisters.

A spoonerism is a play on words in which corresponding consonants, vowels, or morphemes are switched. It is named after the Reverend William Archibald Spooner, Warden of New College, Oxford, who was notoriously prone to this tendency. -Wikipedia.com

For example:

"The Lord is a shoving leopard" ("loving shepherd")

"It is kisstomary to cuss the bride" ("customary to kiss")

"Mardon me, padam, this pie is occupewed. Can I sew you to another sheet?" (Pardon me, madam, this pew is occupied. Can I show you to another seat?")

and one of my personal favorites....

"Let us glaze our a**es to the queer old Dean" ("Let us raise our glasses to the dear old queen")

Can you imagine a Reverend standing for a group people and shouting that across the room?

Most everyone as been a victim of spoonerisms at least once in their life.

Names are a common problem with me.

Jim and Kosh - Dear friends of the family. I've known them practically my whole life. Or at least Josh and Kim have known me my whole life.

Then there's my coworkers Jeau and Boseph. They share an office right across the hall from me. Most people refer to them as Beau and Joseph, but not me. No sir.

The list could go on, but what I'm really blogging about my latest spoonerism .

My family and I were enjoying a nice home-cooked dinner and discussing the latest happenings within our on daily lives.
My mother and I were telling of the wonderful food we experienced in New York City. Mom had this delicious dish that I couldn't remember the name of. It was several kinds of cheeses raped in a crap. That's right... I said, "Raped in a crap." Isn't that the greatest topic to be discussed at the dinner table? What I meant to say was "Wrapped in a crepe."

Slang City for Dummies

2008-07-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

I found this website that takes movie quotes and then translates them for I guess only the true idiots of this world to understand.

Here's a few from Napoleon Dynamite

Uncle Rico: Napoleon, you know we can't afford the fun pack. What, do you think money grows on trees in this family? Take it back! And get some Pampers for you and your brother while you're at it.

Translation:

Napoleon, you know we can't afford this variety package of small, individually wrapped snacks. Do you think this family is wealthy? Take it back! And get some diapers for you and your brother while you're doing that because you both still urinate in your sleep like children and dirty the bed.

How about this one?

Rex: First off, at Rex Kwan Do, we use the buddy system. No more flying solo. You need somebody watching your back at all times. Second off, you're gonna learn to discipline your image. You think I got where I am today because I dressed like Peter Pan over here? Take a look at what I'm wearing, people. Do you think anybody wants a roundhouse kick to the face while I'm wearin' these bad boys?

First, at Rex Kwan Do (martial arts school), we use the "buddy system" where students work in pairs. You will not be alone. You need somebody watching out for you against danger at all times. Secondly, you're going to learn to discipline your image. Do you think I got where I am today because I dressed in an effeminate way, like Kip over here? Take a look at what I'm wearing, people. Do you think anybody wants a roundhouse kick to the face while I'm wearing these impressive and manly pants (which look like the American flag)?

I've been enjoying these so much that I'm beginning to annoying everyone at work. When they say something, I'll yell behind them, "Translation!!!" and then proceed to explain exactly what they just said with more simplistic words.

Here's another one from The Lion King...

Simba: Hey Uncle Scar, when I'm King, what'll that make you?
Scar: A monkey's uncle.
Simba: You're so weird.
Scar: You have no idea.

Translation!!!!

Simba: Hey Uncle Scar, when I'm King, what'll that make you?
Scar: The uncle of someone low and worthless.
Simba: You're so strange.
Scar: You have no idea how strange I am.

Take a look at - Slang City

The Washington Jefferson Square Park

2008-07-01T05:46:00.001-07:00

My Mother and I took a trip to NYC back in May. I'm a huge fan of the Yankees, and if you know baseball at all, you'll know that this is their last season in The House that Ruth Built. Not only did we take in a game, but we also explored the city until our legs gave out.

One of the Parks I just had to go to was the Washington Square Park. I've dreamed of seeing the Washington Arch since I was a little girl, and I just couldn't go to NYC and not see it. However, when we arrived at the park, most of it was under construction. I barely saw any of it. Although I did see this guy, sleeping on the grass. I thought it was funny.

As we studied the great arch, my mother looked to the pillar on the right and said, "Well that's definitely George Washington. I wonder who the man is on the left? It must be Thomas Jefferson."

With a look of complete confusion I said, "Well... it's called the Washington Square Arch. So, I'm assuming it's George Washington also. I mean, they could have put Thomas Jefferson on the George's arch, I guess. But it would probably be called the Washington Jefferson Square Park then."

"Oh my goodness," she said. "I can't believe I just said that. You'll never let me live that down will you?"

"That's right, Mom. I will never forget this."

Complete Randomness

2008-06-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

Do you have those moments where you just say something and it makes absolute no sense at all? I mean, it might make sense to you at times but not to the person you're speaking with.

I have those moments quite often. It's like I'm between reality and a dream. My dream makes perfect sense and then when I'm coming back to the real word, sometimes a piece of that magical land comes with me.
Then when all reality hits you, the room is quite. Everyone's staring at you.
Then KABOOM!!! And avalanche of laughter comes rollin' in! Oh! And you can't forget the pointing of fingers. No sir!

As I was saying, this is a usually a daily occurrence for me.

For example - I was on a work trip with my boss Jeff and my coworker Kara. On our lunch break, Jeff begins to pray over our food. As He was praying, I was thinking how thankful I was for him and for his prayer over our meal.
He said Amen... then Kara said Amen... then I said - Thank You. I didn't even wait for them to laugh; I immediately threw myself back in my chair and began laughing so hard I was crying.
For the rest of the day, we said Amen for Thank You and Thank You for Amen.

Also, as my friend once stated - I have hearing dyslexia. Somebody says something and I hear another.

My mother and I were discussing the Broadway play we had seen. I was trying to remember if David Hyde Pierce had won an award for his roll in Monty Python or if he had just been nominated.
My mother responded with, "Fratoni's?"

I said, "What?"

"Fratoni's?"

"What?"

"FOR TONY's!? Are you talking about the Tony awards?!"

Again, I immediately began to laugh. I explained to her what I had heard. I said, "I thought were were talking about some Italian family. I saw that Taxi in front of us and thought it was a Pizza delivery car. I didn't know what the heck you were talking about!"

My mom started cracking up the moment I mentioned "Italian Family."

Good times, the Faughtsters have.

Emma and the Firecracker

2008-06-26T06:45:00.000-07:00

There are too many words to describe my cousin Emma. She's 9 years-old and already very passionate, sweet, funny, dramatic, and most of all... loving. Today my story is about her.

Emma came bolting down the hall has she always does and ran straight into my arms. We both squeezed tight and then just immediately threw herself away from me.

"Reagan! I have something to tell you!", she said. "A firecracker blew up in my ear!"

I gasped and my eyes grew to the size of baseballs. I inspected her ear and saw the back was black and red from the burns.

My sister, sitting beside me, grabbed my arm and said, "Now Emma, tell Reagan what you were doing when the firecracker exploded."

"Well," Emma said with a huge grin on her face. "Logan told me he was lighting the firecrackers in the ground. Papa John said that was the only way he could play with them - if he lit them in the ground and then ran away. I told Logan that I didn't have to do that because I was better than him. I could light the firecracker and throw it. As I told Logan I was better than him, I raised my arm as far back as I could and threw the black cat. It hit the back of my ear and exploded!"

Emma speaks rather loudly and is so animated about everything. So by this time, she had attracted a crowd. Someone mentioned, "Well, pride comes before the fall, Emma." All of us started chuckling including Emma. She's always going for the laugh factor.

She said the first words out of her mouth after the pop was, "I'm sorry, Logan! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" My Aunt was so proud of her for immediately recognizing her fault.

Emma is such a storyteller. I only wish you could have seen her telling this story herself. She can tell it better than I can write it.

A New Approach

2008-06-25T14:00:00.000-07:00

I'm always laughing.

And when there isn't anything to laugh about at a particular moment, then I'll think of something or some story to evoke at least a smile on my face.

Laughter is the absolute best medicine. If if anyone wants to debate me on this topic, go ahead. But I'm sticking to this belief and nothing nor no one can change my mind.

So my new approach to my blog is by only posting stories and the little anecdotes that occur throughout the day or come to mind. Some may be simple and stupid, but if they make me laugh, I want to remember them always. I forget everything, and I've been saying forever that I should write all this silly nonsense down that I might remember.

Drum roll please for the first story of this sorry little blog....

I entered the laughing world at a young age. However, I was usually the one being laughed at. And the one laughing was my brother. Remember those candy containers with the small scoops at the super markets? You fill your bag with candy and then weigh it at the check out? Well, I used to think the candy was free, so my sister and I would just grab a hand full and munch down as we followed our mother throughout the grocery store.
Mom finally caught us digging into the containers and instructed us never to eat the candy again. It had to be paid for. Leaving candy out there for the taking is just too much temptation for a four-year-old. My mother's instructions could not be withheld! I shoved the candy in my pockets and has we were about to leave, I sprinted towards the sliding doors. I ran as fast as I could and almost made it to freedom. That's right I said "almost." As I was running towards to the great outdoors, I tripped over my own feet and fell to the floor. Saltwater taffy flew out of my pockets and covered the grocery store tiles.
I immediately began to cry and my brother immediately began to laugh... hysterically. My mother however, was trying NOT to laugh and told me I had to pick every piece up and apologize to the cashier (who was also trying not to laugh.) She kept her head down and tried not to look at me as I handed her the candy. I was absolutely humiliated.
Life would never be the same again.